What are we left with when the FI flee"s?

RSS
Email

Author	Comment
bluedreamer		#81	[-]
Seer Posts: 10 (05/19/09 19:45:49) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	docta lee wrote: Hey bluedreamer I think you are talking about a guy i know Halim El-Dabh but his first name is Kallil he has a band called Ethnic Heritage Ensemble I met him a few times very nice guy. Yes the beetle thing i am not sure but maybe it's a Ally? Later. Was your Kallil Halim El-Dabh very old and a professor at Kent State? He was up in his 80's I thought though my memory isn't fresh, coud've been between 68 and 80's. I thought the bug could have been a shaman or that maybe insects have more going on than I suspect, but I have to be cautious about giving things permanent features because I don't know. It didn't feel harmful, I liked watching it. Later
bluedreamer		#82	[-]
Seer Posts: 11 (05/19/09 20:03:26) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	Nagual LoneWolf wrote: Being hit is good, from what even better. But from what was it?-When passing into sleep last night or the one before i saw a pelvis shaped reddish(i think) area on a dark field that I interpreted as a whole at the time and had a passing fear that being hit had made some kind of hole in me, in my cocoon. I don't feel that that is the case, the last so many days have been so good and flowing. So what is good about it and what would you say it is?
Nagual LoneWolf		#83	[-]
Seer Posts: 5923 (05/20/09 19:02:41) Visitor Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	Being hit to me would be as a sign that you attracted the nagual spirit. This spirit uses signs that are physical in nature as they will trap your attention. Learn to see and then react with intent and using your eyes to capture the intent of the nagual. This can then be saved for future interactions.
bluedreamer		#84	[-]
Seer Posts: 17 (05/20/09 21:01:02) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	Interesting Nagual, some things are moving along with some blocked energy I was experiencing and lately I've noticed that a couple of people that used to obviously dislike me with no reason since they barely know me are friendly, I must say I've been mostly impeccable with those two but I didn't expect them to become friendly. The pelvis shape reminds me of the birth passage. Would a pied grackle be a physical sign?--I had a lot of what I thought of as signs last year prior to the sand castle kicking I'm doing now but I can't say it is me that's doing the kicking, not really. I am not sure where to start with learning to see, maybe intending to dream more often than I do. There are a lot of odd things I would like to ask about but not all at once. Thanks Naugual and thanks for this web site.
Nagual LoneWolf		#85	[-]
Seer Posts: 5926 (05/21/09 12:43:23) Visitor Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	Your most welcome Bluedreamer. A sign can be anything that can be read as omen. Certainly grackles could be enlisted.
bentheben		#86	[-]
Member Posts: 18 (06/06/09 05:47:23) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	Hi there. I am not in a position to give some great advices, as I am a novice. Regardless of the fact that I tend to live as a warrior (impeccable) for nearly all my life I still have flyer and I still can not see, though I lost my self importance. Anyways I like apparently many others just as well came to this forum without any really knowledge, I just read CC's books a couple of months earlier, yet still I managed to develop my will power to some extent much earlier. So there I was, trying to figure out things. Most fortunately I met Grandspeculator a couple of times on chat here and then I got priceless opportunity to receive some of his teachings. I am most thankfull for his teachings. He taught (gave me instructions on what to do) me also about dealing with flyers. He talked about being aware of here and now and about asking yourself the question "who am I". Asking yourself that question is a basic as then you realize that you are not the mind or the body. (try it and do it with intent and you shall feel a peculiar feeling on a specific area-around your heart). Then another thing is being aware of here and now, if you are aware that you are just here and now that there is no past and no future but just now, you will automatically be silent, effortlessly. I used to force myself to be silent and had little success, but doing this I once managed to sustain silence (not totally complete but more or less) for 3 days. I have my ups and downs, but it is a breeze to do it, there is nothing more natural than being aware of here and now. I would also like to add something from my personal experience that being aware of here and now is not related to the mind but it is more a bodily awareness or some other sort (sorry but I just do not know how to explain it better). Being aware of here and now means being silent, being silent means beating flyer, it is not an impossible task, but it is close enough :P. I mean I managed to push the flyer away with my intent a couple of times for a short time. And it is a great feeling being without it, hopefully one day I will be totally without it. As I have sever health problems and quite some other problems I relatively fast learned that being aware of here and now is the most important thing in the world. There is nothing more important. (please don't attack me, it is just what I found out for me, if something else matters or nothing matters to you it is your thing and I hope you are successful). You might wonder why I told you this? I think it was not stated in CC's books. Well you should read also other material not just CC, as he (in my opinion) did not find the best solution to everything. I wrote this because I got an intuitive order to pass the knowledge here. I hope it will help at least someone. Once again i am enormously thankful to Grandspeculator who helped me really a lot. And don't attack me because I very well know that I am not in a position to teach or give some useful advice., I just had to wrote this.
Nagual LoneWolf		#87	[-]
Seer Posts: 5951 (06/06/09 07:42:59) Visitor Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	Thank you for sharing Bentheben. The internal dialogue is the first hurtle a warrior must surpass. Sounds like your well on your way. Once one has control of their mind they can concentrate on moving forward out into awareness of themselves. The battle of the flyer is the warrior's greatest battle and one that must be fought many times over a lifetime.
heluka.parallelperception		#88	[-]
Posts: 18 (06/24/09 18:18:18) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	around my house there are some allies I see, I can sense their lonely. One time I dreamt about this animal,it contorted its shape, and became very scary, but i touched its face affectionately. and it teleported me. There were people i knew there, and they disappeared before my eyes, and the piano began to play oddly, and a mass of intent/electricity flooded me. I was seriously scared that time. . If I ask where are you!? outside, it will make knocking sounds or something, look for blinking street lights in a city. They touch them and play with them. Why do they remain in the city I wonder. Its so bright out here. Its fun to go hunting for the allies, their pretty common. A not doing, make sure to watch behind you, and move your awareness with theirs. What does this ally mean, are these guides?(yes) Are some allies assigned to humans for a lifetime?I can tell that it wants me to lead and is sad, because originally we are meant to be the males .
heluka.parallelperception		#89	[-]
Posts: 19 (06/24/09 18:20:39) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	internal dialogue is the amount of energy holding the perception fixed(routines). Names and age, birthday are personal history and are a fix of assemblage, try not to name people.do anything different.
heluka.parallelperception		#90	[-]
Posts: 20 (06/24/09 18:22:43) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	sexual energy is used to move the assemblage point, the taoist have studied and written in great detail. The toaist immortality practices. check it out.
heluka.parallelperception		#91	[-]
Posts: 25 (06/25/09 10:00:22) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	In the right side the flyers can be caught EASILY in the peripheral vision in a dark room or during sunset or night time. especially around twelve until 6. If you lay down in bed you will feel the flyer as a magnetic impulse that is irritating. like a tickle . on your knees area, or your eyebrows, and temples.try doing a circle with your eyes to find out where the impulse is coming from. Then trap the circle with your eyes and lead it out through your eyes ad throw it far far away after you have eaten its outer layers. I move my bed all around my room. if you have a house the best is to get a small mattress and move it anywhere and everywhere in an unpredictable manner for sleep hours. Its really easy, just close your eyes and wait for a flash to occur, and then pull that flash into your hand with your mind and start ripping it apart line by line ruthlessly examine it. Try laying down and not just pushing them away, but eating their awareness and leave them running almost empty so that after you have thrown them far, they have no line back because you violently ripped it from them as you flang them. I know I shouldn't eat too much of them, however sometimes its good to eat a lot of one and sometimes a little, and sometimes its even good to completely kill one of them in front of their piers to instill fear. GRIN .Oh yeah, if your sexual energy is not kept circulating through the heels up the spine and down the front and into the lower dan tien, preferably in morning and evening, the energy in the sexual organs will vibrate ad leave through the bodily opening, where there is likely an inorganic ready to fuck you and make little inorganic scorpions or something so that they can cover your leg and slowly eat you away ahhahahahha. dont feed the pidgeons .
bluedreamer		#92	[-]
Seer Posts: 23 (06/25/09 14:07:54) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	The other night i dreamt that i was dancing at some public gathering and damn it i was showing off and later that day a guy was attracted to me and we were talking closely but that was all I thought, then later in the dream i saw a "tape" or "flashback" of us talking and in it he kissed me and I knew that he really had though I didn't realize it when he did it. That's all I remember of the dream. I believe that was some fe or flyer, before i went to sleep that night I'd read arnways post about fe that disguise themselves as beautiful women(in his case) and sleep with you draining energy away. I was angry with myself in the dream and after for showing off, it clearly shows that when you do stuff like that you open yourself up for invasion. I'm impatient with my regressions and blind spots. Thanks for the tips heluka, it is getting time i saw the flyer. Is that flash you are talking about visual when you close your eyes or are you talking about the magnetic sensation? Eat it's outer layers? I don't know if i want to do that--what effects does it have?
heluka.parallelperception		#93	[-]
Posts: 28 (06/25/09 23:50:35) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	its just atoms energy , vision., if a dog is biting you bite back twice as hard to attain self importance. Of course loss of self importance is the idea too, but that is their playing field. They are self importance. The deadlier the more aware and powerful, the more commanding, and thus listened to and feared. Tape recordings are messages that you need to recapitulate men that wanted you sexually, casual conersations need to be seen for what they were. a sexual attraction. hahaha . sux . there arent many real people with awareness, just a bunch of penises and vaginas and feet. hehe. The flyers also guide us too, they have to pay us back for eating us somehow right hahaha. Its good to keep a journal of your dreams and daily occurences so that nothing goes unnoticed. DEADLY. Because of lack of true nature , heart energy, men and women become ghosts.
bluedreamer		#94	[-]
Seer Posts: 25 (06/27/09 23:09:54) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	Yeah, I started a dream journal not too long ago and then i didn't write a dream down and i didn't remember a dream again till i had the one i just related, thanks for the reminder. Something sounds good about biting back, biting back is best when it's not planned, I'll mull it over and find out when I just saw some beautiful raindrops hanging from a bucket handle when i went outside for a cig, we had thunder showers tonight, those drops were way more interesting than anything I have to say further about this dream. Have a beautiful night next night heluka.
heluka.parallelperception		#95	[-]
Posts: 39 (06/29/09 22:56:21) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	im sure, because the raindrops dont need to be recapped.
bluedreamer		#96	[-]
Seer Posts: 30 (07/01/09 09:55:17) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	On the contrary, it helps me to recap connections with nature. I don't disgree about recapping casual conversations like that, i just don't recall anything recent except one guy I met and I was aware that he was attracted but it wasn't a big deal, I only saw him for an afternoon at some friends and I might not ever see him again as he was from out of town, he wasn't trying to "pick me up" and I wasn't interested like that either. Those drops took me out of inner flapping jaw for awhile--much more interesting.
heluka.parallelperception		#97	[-]
Posts: 42 (07/01/09 18:15:07) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	kissing = not doing. so maybe its also the need to not do and hang around males. We are condititioned to act a certain way towards males. Arnway eats too much meat, and heavy stuff, and he doesnt know how to breath, so his intent becomes focused in the lower area, and thus the nocturnal emission. Hopefully Arnway, youll notice that and eat nicer to the female with respect. if you learn how to breath, sexual desire becomes vitality.
bluedreamer		#98	[-]
Seer Posts: 34 (07/01/09 19:40:52) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	Does "not do your folly" mean not act out of habitual patterns? and what about controlled folly--I could use a better grasp on that. I do notice myself breathing in certain ways when i walk, or when I'm spinning sticks or dancing etc . I don't breath that way deliberately--my body already knows, it is breathing "with" the movement . Don't know if this is like the breathing you are talking about, would like to hear you speak more on that. Yeah, conditioning sucks. I do have some good male friends to hang out with and not do. Thanks heluka
heluka.parallelperception		#99	[-]
Posts: 47 (07/01/09 21:43:55) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	yes not get angry when someone is raging, for instance. the right to left and left to right sweeping breath with the movement of the head.
bluedreamer		#100	[-]
Seer Posts: 44 (07/06/09 20:22:14) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	A couple of nights ago I went into my darkened bathroom to see the flyer, i didn't see the flier but i saw some moving light as if a distant car light could shine in only that is impossible. I got frightend and came outa there , then I remeberd a time the summer of 2007 when I saw a vision of a huge darkened form that covered above and all the people had there eyes fixed on it. Only after i came outta the bathroom did I connect that vision to the flier--i thought of it as "leviathon" as the forces that drive this insanity culture, only now it seems like i saw the flier of the age or something like that or leviathon whatever names its called by. I don't want to see that again. I was flattend for a couple of months after---it was overwhelming for awhile , then a year or so after that I get a shocking experience of what that does in my life and its my battle

Yuku free message boards

What are we left with when the FI flee"s?

Quick Reply